Sunday, November 1

memories

the pioneer woman recently did a post on the skirvin hotel. it brought back some memories of my 22nd birthday when a few friends and i wandered around there for an hour or so...possibly illegally...but we didn't do anything too weird...

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it's rumored to be haunted...

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...i can believe it.

it really is a beautiful place though.

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la la la

i'm getting the feeling no one is reading my ramblings! i don't blame them..the life of an unemployed 23 year old isn't very interesting..unless i was traveling the world or something...hmm...maybe i should travel the world...

Thursday, October 15

dreams

Lately i've been having the weirdest dreams..and i remember them all very vividly.

A few nights ago i dreamed that i got into an all out brawl with these girls in my past that i didn't get along with very well. in the dream i was back in my high school and when i walked out the front door with my friend they jumped us and had this guy helping them. instead of staying there to fight, i went back in the building and walked the long way to get to my car.

When i looked up what it means to be fighting in a dream it said this:

To dream that you are in a fight, indicates inner turmoil. Some aspect of yourself is in conflict with another aspect of yourself. It may also parallel a fight or struggle that you are going through in your waking life.

and this:

The basic meaning in a dream of fighting is change. Change of job, etc. The degree of success or failure you may expect from the change was forecast in the outcome of your dreamed fight.


Now...this makes total sense, especially since it referenced a job. I've been searching for a job for over five months now. The outcome of the fight in my dream was that i took the long way around in order to avoid the fight. It's been so frustrating spending all this time searching and coming up empty handed that i find myself avoiding even reading the emails to the address i have for job searching. instead of jumping in and kicking ass, i'm avoiding the whole process altogether. And my inner turmoil results from the fact that i know i need one, and need to put all i have into finding one, but i desperately don't want to get stuck doing something i hate, and it's becoming harder and harder to face rejection every time.

Last night i dreamed that i was in my room and all of the sudden i was pregnant and giving birth to a baby. it popped out like magic and all of the sudden there it was! i knew robert was the dad so i made plans to go see him and show him the baby. well by the next day the baby had become a toddler and the funny thing is, it looked exactly like robert, except with long curly hair and of course way smaller. i named him 'little robert' haha (yes, i know i'm ridiculous.)

I looked up what it means to be giving birth and it said this:

To dream of giving birth represents a new attitude, fresh beginnings or a major upcoming event. Alternatively, the dream may be calling attention to your inner child and the potential for you to grow.

and this

You are sure to have good news after dreaming about the birth of a child. If you dream of a walking baby it can indicate a sense of sudden independence.

This time in my life is nothing but new beginnings..so i guess that makes sense. And i sincerely hope i can anticipate good news to come!
Maybe my life is so boring these days that my brain is creating vivid dreams in order to entertain me in my waking hours. who knows!

Tuesday, September 29

pre-move happenings

On Sunday robert came over to get a dryer out of my mom's garage. i had given him my washer and dryer from stillwater and the dryer had stopped working. we figured that before he moves into his new place on wednesday we should install the new one so the movers have to move it, and not us. since my mom always seems to have a spare of anything you could possibly need (tv stand, night stand, lamp, couch, dryer, samuri sword...you name it...it's probably in our garage...and there's probably two of them in there!) we were in luck! so, in the process of digging out the dryer we decided to de-crapify some space in there. It was a highly sweaty and dusty morning...but it looks much more organized now! we got the dryer loaded up in the little truck and started our trip towards his apartment.

Everything was fine and dandy until i got onto the highway and the dryer started dancing around in the bed of the truck! Envisioning a million car pile up on the freeway caused by an airborn dryer, we immediately freaked out...robert said "STOP STOP!!" i said..."I CAN'T STOP I'M ON THE HIGHWAY!!!" so i very calmly exited..and we managed to pullover and re-situate the situation and off we went!!

I found this awesome club chair outside of robert's aparment...but he seems to have an issue with adopting other people's used furniture from the dumpster...there was only a few stains and im sure the cocaine hidden in the tears is long gone by now... ;)

After the dryer installation, we went to jason's deli with my brother and his girlfriend, christi. It was good times...christi and i mixed chocolate mousse and swirl frozen yogurt to find that the concoction tasted oddly like a frosty from wendy's. (so THAT'S how they do it!!)

Later that night we went to robert's parent's house, where we watched criminal minds with his mommy until 2 am.

It was definitely a long day, but very productive!

Saturday, September 26

screw the park..i want a treat!

you gotta love the strange puggy noises that can be heard throughout the video :)